So this really isn't related to anything that scarleteen does, but I really couldn't think of anywhere else I could talk about this, so I'm writing this, I guess. Because it is so unrelated, there is no need to respond or even read past here.
The tldr here is that I have been wanting to get a tattoo, and I designed one with a lot of meaning to me as an incentive to stop/reward to stop doing The Thing. Well, last week, I did The Thing again. At the time, I rationalized it as not being ready to give up The Thing, not deserving the tattoo, and just overall freaking out about how it would look bad on me as I age or if my weight changes significantly. Looking back, it may have been self-sabotage, but I'm not too sure.
Anyway, I emailed to cancel my appointment (that I already paid the $50 deposit for), but I accidentally typed y date instead of x date. The parlor has sent me a few emails and even called and left a voicemail to make sure I want to cancel. I feel so horrible because they are being so kind, and for the artist that I'm screwing over. I've mildly thinking about keeping the appointment and getting a different tattoo, but I know that changing the design last minute is also super rude.