So, I've been binding for about a year and a half using GC2B binders, they work pretty great but lately I've had some problems with it.
I'm an athlete, so I stay pretty active, and have always worn my binder for working out, and up until recently I haven't had issues with that. I know obviously, you're not supposed to bind when working out, but realistically, I think it would be worse to take it off than to wear it, I'd prefer to be in pain than look female. I don't think I gave binding while working out a whole lot of thought before, I've always gone swimming, worked out in and honestly, I don't understand how it's possible not to wear a binder for less than 8 hours a day, because in my schedule it's not possible. Lately I think I've definitely been having some issues though that I don't want to take too lightly because they are kind of about my health, and I don't want them to take me out of events. I the biggest piece coming to mind that said something was off is that during gym, we do a 12 minute run, for me, this run is usually no problem. What ended up happening though is a little while ago, I was about a minute in and there was a very sharp pain in my side, there's a difference between a cramp and this, and I knew something was wrong, let my teacher know and of course he just wanted to push me and let me know that I'm an athlete and that I could do it. - great advice. So, I pushed through in tears for most of the run and after went to the bathroom where I cried a bit. I noticed that's not uncommon anymore for me, and for a while, I wanted to say it was cramps, but I know the difference and I've never had an issue with cramps in that way, not in this area of my body anyways. Also, being sick showed me that it might've been a bigger issue because eventually with coughing, I couldn't stand the pain anymore, and then although it's not much, it's become a noticeable pain when I touch my ribs on the left side. All of those aren't good things obviously, but I can't go without binding, so I'm wondering if anyone else has struggled with this, maybe has some tips or suggestions? Or maybe some ideas for alternative binding? I know there's been other things mentioned in other threads of mine and a lot of them I do, such as clothing, but I'm unsure what to do because I'm thinking I need a break from my binder.
Even around the house, I typically don't leave my room without my binder on because especially my brother loves making jokes about breasts and they just make me so uncomfortable, he knows it and has stopped some of it, like he doesn't tell me to "calm my tits" anymore which grosses me out even typing. It's just not a great feeling I guess. I call him on the other things because he just really doesn't get it and I think it's going to require more of a discussion than the one we had when he was in like 5th grade. I know how important it is to be safe with binding, I've read up on it, and I don't really need to hear more about that piece. I have new binders coming in soon, I believe, I have to double check that my mom ordered them but a big part of the reason my style changed was so my chest is hidden even with a binder on. I have a smaller chest (if you know how the sizing runs, the only reason I go into small rather than extra small is because I have broad shoulders, my shoulders put me at a borderline medium. Navigating that whole piece was interesting, and a real guess), I always have and I'm incredibly grateful for it, but it stresses me out thinking that it might be visible.
I want to be safe with this, so any help would be very much appreciated. I don't really think this is something I want to be toying with too much.
I also want to say, I have actually taken a look through https://www.scarleteen.com/trans_summer ... ssion_gear
like I know it's saying certain bras work but honestly, I don't even know where to really begin on that one. I have a 10k in May, actually, that might be cancelled, but like, I am not going out in public without a binder.
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