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by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 12:08 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

ok,I read what you wrote.
by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 11:57 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

I didn't say yes and i didn't want tu put his penis in my mouth
by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 11:38 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

can it still be sexual abuse if i wanted to be raped but WHEN the situation actually happened I didn't consent?
by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 11:21 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

Can I just ask one question?
by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 10:30 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

This is what my sexual therapist wrote in email (translated to english): "It's not easy to answer that question. Many times people agree to sex,not because they want it,but to satisfy the other person,not to insult that person or because they love them.Is that then rape? If there was a consent ...
by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 5:30 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

again,I wasn't on medications and I'm very psychotic,but I still didn't give consent
by IAmScared
Tue Feb 19, 2019 5:11 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

I told my therapist but we haven't really talked about it I am severely mentally ill,like A LOT,so I think I am happy that I was raped and before I was raped I wanted to be taken advatage of,BUT when I was raped I HATED it,it was horrible,I did think crazy thoughts but I hated it when he raped me,it...
by IAmScared
Mon Feb 18, 2019 10:04 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

I remember things slightly differently now. Basically, the guy suggested oral sex. I wanted to satisfy him and for him to not leave me.But. I never said yes.And my face showed great discomfort and it was clear that I didn't want it but I barely did it because he wanted me to.Was it still a rape?
by IAmScared
Thu Jan 31, 2019 10:15 am
Forum: Supporting Each Other
Topic: Mental hospitals
Replies: 2
Views: 5016

Mental hospitals

I think I'll need to go to a hospital again after top surgery. And hospital stays are hard.Do you have any advice on how to make a stay in MH easier?
by IAmScared
Thu Jan 31, 2019 6:37 am
Forum: Supporting Each Other
Topic: I don't enjoy life
Replies: 1
Views: 3964

I don't enjoy life

I am miserable. I have psychosis and am paranoid. I have borderline personality disorder. I hate anorgasmia. Everything makes me unhappy or angry. I burned my hand with a lighter couple of days ago. I hate taking pills. I hate that I can't be normal - have a boyfriend,friends,family,job. I hate my f...
by IAmScared
Thu Jan 31, 2019 5:56 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

Why would I want to find a different therapist?
by IAmScared
Thu Jan 31, 2019 12:47 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

also,I have a friend Snježana who had sex with a guy and she wasn't mentally capable to have sex with anyone cause she felt that her need to satisfy her boyfriend was more important then her not wanting sex,and the guy knew it. And he was just smiling while she did sex with him with disgust and fear...
by IAmScared
Thu Jan 31, 2019 12:02 am
Forum: Sex & Sexuality
Topic: Vaginal Intercourse Is Not Sex For Me
Replies: 11
Views: 5886

Re: Vaginal Intercourse Is Not Sex For Me

Well vaginal sex is socially viewed as a "real sex". But if you don't consider it real sex then for you it's not real sex. Why is this important to you so much? You don't have to have any kind of sex you don't want.
by IAmScared
Wed Jan 30, 2019 11:33 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

no! that's other thing. my shrink told me it's only harassment when my grandpa touched my boobs without asking. not about this.the thing is I'm not sure if I said "no" to my rapist above (NOT my grandpa).
by IAmScared
Wed Jan 30, 2019 12:18 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

I can't stop feeling sorry for myself for what happened to me. He'd call me a child when we were naked. (He somehow,i don't know how,knew that I was much behind my peers mentally). He gave me a bit of discomfort when he was asking me would I kiss children. He offered to go to the toilet with me. I g...
by IAmScared
Wed Jan 30, 2019 8:11 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

Re: I don't think I was raped?

also,I wanna add that I wanted blowjob later (not that first time!) and that I asked him to tape us.
by IAmScared
Wed Jan 30, 2019 8:08 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I don't think I was raped?
Replies: 27
Views: 13298

I don't think I was raped?

ok,so I was with this guy. he wanted oral sex. i didn't and i made a face of disgust and fear cause i was scared of blowjob. then he said "come on kiss it (his penis),look how he is watching you".i remember feeling awful and he knew it.but then i (very unhappily) put his penis in my mouth ...
by IAmScared
Wed Jan 30, 2019 7:59 am
Forum: Sexual Identity
Topic: I don't know my sexual orientation
Replies: 9
Views: 7538

Re: I don't know my sexual orientation

I think I'm gay because I can't have a crush on a girl. And cause I was kissing with this very pretty girl and I felt something but that was nothing when compared with just hugging boys I liked.And I rarely like boobs.
by IAmScared
Wed Jan 30, 2019 7:37 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I disagree
Replies: 5
Views: 4631

Re: I disagree

Is sexual assault the same thing as rape?
by IAmScared
Tue Jan 29, 2019 10:49 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I disagree
Replies: 5
Views: 4631

Re: I disagree

It doesn't make sense.It's like me saying a person who touched my boobs without my consent raped me.
by IAmScared
Tue Jan 29, 2019 8:34 am
Forum: Sexual Identity
Topic: I don't know my sexual orientation
Replies: 9
Views: 7538

Re: I don't know my sexual orientation

Using word gay makes me feel better then using bisexual because,in my opinion,biphobia is worse then homophobia. People don't take you seriously and think you just want attention and that you want to have sex with everyone. I think also they believe that you have to make a choice. (Plus,I think bein...
by IAmScared
Mon Jan 28, 2019 9:07 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I disagree
Replies: 5
Views: 4631

I disagree

I disagree with what I read on your website,that you consider rape to be unwanted touch of your butt or chest. I had that happen to me and my shrink told me it was only sexual harrassment.
by IAmScared
Mon Jan 28, 2019 9:04 am
Forum: Sexual Identity
Topic: I don't know my sexual orientation
Replies: 9
Views: 7538

Re: I don't know my sexual orientation

I think I'm gay. I used to have sex with this one girl and I didn't like it. Then,I was kissing with the prettiest girl ever and it was nice but I much prefered when I would hug guys (who wouldn't agree on anything more,unfortunately). There just wasn't that spark with this girl like it was with guy...
by IAmScared
Fri Jan 18, 2019 8:35 am
Forum: Sex & Sexuality
Topic: I can't have orgasms
Replies: 5
Views: 3660

Re: I can't have orgasms

Yeah sorry lemme answer: No.Nothing makes me that happy as masturbation with orgasms.I feel so much relief when I orgasm. I tried everything with my sexual therapist but he now says to combine multiple things of the stuff we tried (that haven't worked) - he gave an example of erection pills + clitor...
by IAmScared
Fri Jan 18, 2019 8:12 am
Forum: Gender
Topic: Top Surgery
Replies: 6
Views: 7948

Re: Top Surgery

I spoke to my "regular" psychiatrist about changing my mind and she said I should do the surgery. I haven't talked to my sexual therapist yet since I have an appointment only in February. My mum says that since I am unhappy about my breasts now,even if I regret the surgery it won't be wors...