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by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 02, 2020 11:29 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Thank you. I'm stuck on really how to reply, so I'm sorry if things are a little jumbled. I'm sorry you've had to deal with that, Heather. I hope the charges are laid, but sadly that would only be on the boyfriend for the death threats. The stalker and person who abused me, nothing can happen there....
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Apr 02, 2020 6:53 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I'm sorry to hear about your mom, that must be scary. Mine's an civil engineer, so thankfully she won't have to go into the hospital to work, that can't be fun. I wish both you and her the best. A switch would be nice, but yeah, not an option sadly. Also, it would be incredibly cool if that's how fe...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Apr 01, 2020 9:29 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

She'll be able to work from home at least one day a week, but sadly she has to go in to do safety testing in the labs or something, or educate a bunch of workers, idk really, I just know it's been hard on her. Thankfully she's not at all that high risk of exposure though. Seeing her as tired and wor...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Apr 01, 2020 7:57 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Thank you, Jacob and Karyn. It feels good to have cut that guy out of my life, before it was text messages from the second I woke up all the way until about 2 in the morning, as well as him frequently asking if I was alone and wanted to video chat so he could watch me. It got pretty weird to the tun...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Apr 01, 2020 5:53 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I got an appointment!! Well, my parents do, with a psychiatrist (the one my moms boss recommended). So like, that's amazing. On the phone they asked my mom if the father was in the home, she obviously said yes and when she repeated that question he burst out and said "NO, you're supposed to say...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Apr 01, 2020 7:14 am
Forum: Bodies
Topic: Extreme Itching?
Replies: 4
Views: 2944

Re: Extreme Itching?

Hi wintersolstice, I'm sorry you're having to experience that, it doesn't sound very pleasant, I'm also sorry you feel embarrassed to talk to your mom about this. As far as yeast/bacterial infections there's a few different reasons those happen, not just related to hygiene - including irritation, es...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Tue Mar 31, 2020 7:02 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11138

Re: Struggling with dating apps

So, there’s a few things going on in your last post there. I get how times are feeling increasingly lonely, that can really suck. I wonder if there’s maybe like an online community you can join, like I know discord is a good one for gaming. Are you practicing self care and trying to follow your norm...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Tue Mar 31, 2020 5:59 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11138

Re: Struggling with dating apps

I get that, but also, I’d really disagree with that last statement. Although feelings do change, I think what most people refer to is that there’s more of a sense of freedom. Typically that comes from still being young and able, not tied down to a family or major job, just being able to really do wh...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Mon Mar 30, 2020 2:42 pm
Forum: Got Questions? Get Answers.
Topic: Struggling with dating apps
Replies: 37
Views: 11138

Re: Struggling with dating apps

I find that generally depends on quite a few different factors ranging from the agpp your using, age you're looking for as well as like who's in your area/similar interests, boredom plays a factor for a lot of people as well as stress. A lot of adults are under quite a bit of stress when it comes to...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Mon Mar 30, 2020 9:45 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Okay, I've had to be pretty adamant about the phone thing, thankfully I think I've gotten them to a point they might just shut off my wifi at a certain hour (they really seem to think I'm on social media, late, I'm not however, I do other things. If shutting off my wifi is the way they want to go, i...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Mon Mar 30, 2020 8:56 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I finally ended up having a conversation with my mom about the way I've still been feeling and that went a few different ways. In general, my mental health hasn't been the greatest lately, and I have like actually been doing the things I'm supposed to for therapy as well as acts like self care, and ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sun Mar 29, 2020 10:13 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Yeah, I think I kind of needed to hear that for sure, thank you. I have been journalling a bit, I also have like cute reminders of stuff set up to kind of remind me those things and to remind me why I am still fighting everything. Its a lot harder to see it when you're in a low place, so it can make...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Mar 28, 2020 5:41 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Pretty weird honestly, I've gone through a range of emotions, starting the morning cocky as hell and dancing (I think I may have a tik tok obsession), but things went downhill after I guess something triggered a flashback and so that sucked, a lot. I'm kind of back jamming to music and just doing ev...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Sat Mar 28, 2020 1:32 pm
Forum: Et Cetera
Topic: Research project - AIDs crisis
Replies: 6
Views: 5382

Re: Research project - AIDs crisis

I kind of wanted to ask a few more questions about this, if there’s anyone who’s lived through that who may see it, or maybe because it might spark some ideas. The few last questions I kind of had: - what was it like for you if you lived though the AIDS crisis? - How do you think that’s shaped your ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Fri Mar 27, 2020 8:03 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Update: So, I came home two hours later and everyone seemed to have chilled out, my mom left me a peace offering (what I'm calling it) of gummy bears on my bed. Came home with about 20 minutes until dinner, and no one seemed too upset at that point, my dad certainly wasn't happy (fair) but there was...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Mar 26, 2020 6:26 pm
Forum: Bodies
Topic: Body bliss call out!
Replies: 22
Views: 18578

Re: Body bliss call out!

So, I was surfing around and found this, and although I'm a few years late I thought it was pretty amazing. For me, I've noticed there's actually quite a few things I really like about my body, one example is my teeth. I had to have surgery to not only remove my wisdom teeth but one of my "I&qu...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Mar 26, 2020 4:08 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I've tried a few times (also using "I" statements because that does make a difference) but what happens is either she goes back to doing them for a short time, or gets mad. It's not really a risk I want to take at the moment, because if there's outside stress it usually ends up with her ye...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Mar 26, 2020 3:43 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I don't really think so? I'm kind of just getting everything they need done around here, talking to my friend and her parents to see what my options are that way in case things continue. It's kind of just playing the game of "which coping skills do my parents want to take away, and how do I dea...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Mar 26, 2020 3:04 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

So much for a calm day... I literally can't catch a break, I'm trying so freaking hard and everytime I freaking try it just gets worse. So, the person who hurt me, is blowing up on Tik Tok, that's great, my friend sent me a photo that she popped up on her for you page with about 50k likes, 120k view...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Mar 26, 2020 10:46 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I think that really kind of helped me make at least a bit more sense of that, thank you. And also knowing that it did actually help someone and that there's reasoning behind it. One thing that I kind of picked up on was this: "A key idea of mindfulness is to recognize that just because your bod...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Thu Mar 26, 2020 9:31 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I ended up messaging my school counsellor because she had wanted me to keep her updated on everything anyways, and so she mentioned that there is a lot of research behind present moment mindfulness and it's effectiveness long term, but acknowledged it can feel like I'm doing nothing because there's ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Mar 25, 2020 7:23 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

She sure wasn't today and really kept pushing that idea and eventually I went with it because like there is a reason she's trying to get me to do that, and like to some extent it does make sense, you know? (I also had to have a full discussion about what "dichotomy" means and that was a co...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Mar 25, 2020 6:33 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

I think yeah, I tried bringing it up today, but that's kind of where the "be in the now" piece came from, and I'm just thinking that if I could do that, I wouldn't be in therapy. Either way though, I think that will certainly be a topic of discussion, it just feels weird because the times ...
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Mar 25, 2020 5:59 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Thank you, I can't freaking wait for the bad times to get shorter, like it going in circles really does kind of play with my emotions. Hopefully my mom and I will be able to get connected with another psychiatrist and my therapist will update me on what's going on on her end during out next session....
by 0PT1M15T1C
Wed Mar 25, 2020 3:17 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: I just feel so broken..Am I?
Replies: 217
Views: 77747

Re: I just feel so broken..Am I?

Thank you! I've heard of Trans Lifeline, and have a few others such as like Kids Help Phone, and hotlines for different things in my city, so I'll definitely keep that in mind. I really hated being trans, and still kind of do but I'm coming to learn it's okay to be trans (more for myself, there's no...