Hello everyone, So great news, the meeting went exceedingly well! We both apologized for our past actions. Literally the first thing they said when I told them I'd been thinking about our past relationship was that they wanted to let things go and be friends. We still actually get along very well in...

Update:
I haven't read any of the new posts.
I'm stuck in traffic and about 10 minutes away from their town. My friend bailed so I am currently alone. Good luck to me I guess.

Okay so I'll give a short blurb here about my current feelings: I guess I'm putting a lot of value on this??? I don't know, I'm more bent out of shape still over the fact that they literally just stopped talking to me instead of confronting our problems. A sign of extremely poor communication. I can...

Hey everyone, This is definitely a big mess of scattered old emotions I'm getting myself into. Now I have some older posts that go waaaaaay back to me freaking out, having extremely negative self outlook and heavy thoughts of self harm because of how my relationship was going with my partner at the ...

So after going back and forth on my reaction to my romantic feelings, I've realized something. I like or feel drawn to this person because this is the first time(? Maybe the second time/first time in a long time) that I interacted intimately with someone where there were no strict gender roles invol...

Hey horriblegoose, When it came to shutting down it was a bit hard at first to recognize it. It wasn't until I reminded myself a vow I took for my development: I never wanted to be toxicly masculine. This included emotional numbing. I told myself I've gotten too far to fall back into my old habits a...

Hey Siân, I don't really know exactly how to deal with shutting down aside from "phoning a friend" or trying to distract from it. Usually I just try to find a healthy outlet for this but I haven't had an intense shutdown like this in a long time. For already established relationships vulne...

Hey 0PT1M15T1C, I'll start by clarifying that I don't feel lonely because I don't feel motivated. I feel lonely just because that's simply how I feel in regards to my romantic situation and can't distract myself with partying or friends due to schedules and being more busy young adults. I will say I...

Hey everyone, So you all have some over arching themes here that I'll address in bulk in this first reply. I do understand focusing on forms of intimacy and do prioritize my friendships. I do NOT view romantic relationships as more important than every other type of relationship in my life. I do how...

Hey y'all, I feel like I am not entirely here. Like there's something that physically feels off in my being and at first I couldn't recognize what it was but after typing it out and thinking about it more I realize. I very much feel like I've been relapsing hardcore into my defensive behaviors like ...

Alright, so I finally got my Fascination Sleeve from GenderCat! GenderCat is a company owned by a trans man who creates and sells gender affirming products for transmasc folks or people on T. After playing around with the Blue Valentine (the Sexy Pill) I finally figured out how to penetrate somethin...

Hey Amanda, Thank you for the encouragement! I don't feel bummed at all about the four months timeline and as a matter of fact I'm hoping to use the timeline to continue to build on myself and my passions. I'm in school full time again, I'm starting a new job soon that'll hold me down until my rigor...

Hey everyone, So I'm doing some shopping for a new prosthetic and I'm trying to find a new harness that I can wear under my boxer briefs. Since I have no consistent sexual partners at the moment I'm looking for a "one size fits most" sort of packer. Something that will be comfy for the maj...

Hi Siân! So considering my past with my long distance relationship and how that turned out, I would very strongly prefer a physical relationship. Unless I was with my partner for a long time prior to the distance or just a super special circumstance, I personally don't see myself having a romantic l...

Hey Mo, You make a lot of great points! I do keep in mind that in any relationship you need to properly and openly communicate with the partners involved. When I say it feels different or unrealistic it feels like so much more than "good chemistry" to me. For me good chemistry feels more s...

Hey Siân, I'm hoping something comes of this interaction, that it leads to something more. I recognize that this is not something that is guaranteed to happen even if "the stars align". But I would hope that I get to see this person again someday and be able to date them and eventually end...

Hey Sam,
Glad to know I'm not alone in that boat! It seems interesting to be.more aware of it now than I have been in the past!

Alright, I've had a whole amazing and emotional train wreck of a weekend. I met someone and while we hooked up in a way that wouldn't seem like much to others (making out and dry humping one another) there was something about this experience and this person that was different. In between, making out...

Hey Heather, I guess to summarize my post I've been thinking heavily about 2 things recently. 1. Why don't I orgasm from this new method or orgasm as intensely? (I'm sure I can guess why, like bodies being different or something along those lines). It's not coming from a point of judgement of my bod...

Hey y'all, So looking at my new method of masturbation, I can mostly tell when I'm erect, I can tell when I'm responding to pleasure but I can't tell when I orgasm. There's also a possibility that I may not be orgasming. I guess these things are fine but I do miss that intense feeling of "getti...

Hey y'all, So I'm a nonbinary person and I've been on testosterone for a little over a year now and have been getting more in touch with my body again. Yesterday I was noticeably more hungry than usual and today I'm a lot more aroused and craving sexual (and non-sexual) touch. I've also been recentl...

Hey Amanda, Thanks for letting me know! I actually have a "great" breakthrough in my sexual exploration. I got my new toy and finally got lubricant to try it out! I made sure to actually look at my genitals first to make sure the fit was correct. Once I got it in I thought it was too much ...

Alright so things I've noticed with my sexual responses and habits: I have had a significant disinterest in porn/porn usage. I find that I don't get off as easily as I used to with masturbation and porn so I've almost stopped using it altogether. I think my genitals function differently since being ...

So the short version is that second date never happened because of timing and "bad" luck. I also less than an hour ago saw a friend of mine that I hadn't seen in a few months (the same person I had a crush on in the earlier stages of my last relationship) revealed the distance between us w...

Alright everyone, I just got home from my date! Everything went really well and honestly I realized that for myself personally this is the first time I went on a legit date with someone in a while. I kept in mind to let things progress naturally and thought of it in just an exploration of a new pers...