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by Berkeley2003
Fri Nov 03, 2023 5:31 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Not sure about starting HRT
Replies: 1
Views: 1431

Not sure about starting HRT

Hi! I've been kind of thinking about starting HRT, but I'm not sure. This is probably something to talk in detail with my gender therapist. I know something feels off for me, particularly around my voice. I'm uncomfortable to speak. I'm just uncertain about starting HRT, because I don't know if I wa...
by Berkeley2003
Fri Oct 06, 2023 12:23 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Dealing with internalized shame
Replies: 1
Views: 6961

Dealing with internalized shame

Hi there, I've posted in the past about sorting out my gender identity and I would still say I'm on that journey. Though I've made some good small steps (e.g., sharing my situation with loved ones and housemates), I still feel really uncomfortable and admittedly a little ashamed of myself. I think i...
by Berkeley2003
Sun Aug 20, 2023 7:53 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Re: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

Hi there, I agree that I'm still sorting things out and haven't landed on anything definitive. I've noticed myself spiraling kind of into analysis paralysis, which seems on par for me. I'm kind of at an impasse where I'm doing a lot of internal thinking and pressuring to rush things, but not engagin...
by Berkeley2003
Wed Aug 09, 2023 6:59 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Re: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

I just wanted to add I think the stress of it feels unbearable and compounding. Especially amid other big life changes and transitions going on for me in my mid-20s. It feels pretty unsettling, scary, and debilitating. I'm feeling pretty scared about this gender crisis and alone in it.
by Berkeley2003
Wed Aug 09, 2023 6:45 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Re: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

Hi there! Thanks for responding. Really appreciate the support via this forum, especially since my next therapy appointment is next week. I think the prospect of it being vocal dysphoria really, really scares me if I'm being truly honest. I think it scares me because it would entail doing something ...
by Berkeley2003
Sat Jul 29, 2023 3:02 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Re: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

Thank you! Yes, I think it's a big accomplishment too. In terms of baby steps, I recently shared what I'm going through with a loved one despite feeling fearful. I'm glad I did it b/c it was positively received. I'm struggling at the moment with how to deal and address something that's nagging at me...
by Berkeley2003
Sun Jul 23, 2023 9:30 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Re: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

Hi there, Yes, I think that's a good idea. I'm planning to raise it with my gender therapist this week. Regarding loved ones, I'm just anxious about sharing my gender exploration b/c it feels scary and I think it would feel more real, my gender struggle. If I zoom out, I can tell that I'm overwhelme...
by Berkeley2003
Sat Jul 08, 2023 9:37 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Re: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

Hey there, Apologies for replying late to this message! I appreciate you sharing that link. This is kind of related, but I'm actually in the process of working gender therapist which I think is a helpful next step. I definitely think this is something I can chat about in session, but I definitely te...
by Berkeley2003
Sat Apr 08, 2023 6:41 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?
Replies: 12
Views: 113393

Wondering if I have voice dysphoria?

Hi there! I’ve posted before about coming to grips with questioning my gender identity as a FTM person, which is something I’m navigating while dealing with OCD. Having OCD can kind of complicate matters and make for intolerance of uncertainty. Despite it, I want to embrace this uncertainty. I’m beg...
by Berkeley2003
Fri Oct 14, 2022 5:41 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Gender feelings
Replies: 11
Views: 5635

Re: Gender feelings

Yeah those are good points but I don’t even feel particularly excited to explore gender expression. I feel like my mind is ruminating and ruminating that I can’t make any moves so that’s kind of why I wanna settle my OCD if that makes sense. I’m just confused what to do and maybe talking it out in m...
by Berkeley2003
Thu Oct 13, 2022 12:09 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Gender feelings
Replies: 11
Views: 5635

Re: Gender feelings

I agree. I’m having second thoughts even though I scheduled a initial consultation with a gender therapists. Sorry to make this complicated, but I’m a person with diagnosed OCD. My OCD has involved gender obsessions and I wonder if I should get my OCD settled before gender exploration? It’s like I’m...
by Berkeley2003
Tue Oct 11, 2022 8:31 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Gender feelings
Replies: 11
Views: 5635

Re: Gender feelings

Thanks!! That’s a helpful resource.

I think it’s helpful to frame my journey as going towards more authentic self expression as opposed towards going to labels. I think I just feel really nervous and should see a gender therapist.
by Berkeley2003
Sat Oct 08, 2022 10:36 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Gender feelings
Replies: 11
Views: 5635

Re: Gender feelings

Hi there, In terms of clothing I would be interested in trying maybe a tie? other than that I can’t think of anything else. I’m wondering if I’m drawing a blank because I’m not thinking creatively. It’s weird I feel like frozen to think through ideas. I’m not particularly interested in trying out li...
by Berkeley2003
Sat Oct 01, 2022 9:37 am
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Gender feelings
Replies: 11
Views: 5635

Re: Gender feelings

Hi, Thank you for the offer!! I haven’t really tried out anything at home or in the more public sphere due to anxiety. I guess I’m feeling overwhelmed and need to break through that impasse. Something I’ve been considering is maybe getting a shorter haircut since I’ve always worn my hair long. Anoth...
by Berkeley2003
Fri Sep 30, 2022 7:36 pm
Forum: Ask Us!
Topic: Gender feelings
Replies: 11
Views: 5635

Gender feelings

Hi there, I’m AFAB and recently have been struggling a lot with my gender identity in a short period of time. I think I’ve always known that my relationship with gender was rocky and uncomfortable but haven’t pieced it completely together until now. It’s pretty intense, nerve wracking and overwhelmi...