Thanks for the help! I think I'll revisit the thread in a few months time before uni restarts, maybe early September? I think that should give me plenty of time to get my mind off it and relax.

Hi, Thanks for the reassurance! That and hearing about the spotlight effect definitely makes me feel more at ease about the situation. I think getting some clarity from him would help, but I'm not sure how I'd go about it. Normally we sit separately in different friend groups and I wouldn't know how...

So I don't know if this is the right place and I feel horrible about the whole situation, but I really need to vent/confess/get some advice if possible. Also sorry in advance for the ridiculous length, I don't want to be a nuisance but this has been on my mind for months and I don't want to miss any...