Thank you Elise & Sofi for you're advice and time. I really appreciate the both of you. Like you both said I will try my best to talk to my parents about therapy. Hopefully in the future I will feel more comfortable talking to them about what happened.

I haven't been introduced to therapy although I want to, my parents are weird. My parents don't know what happened to me and I'm not ready to tell them. My mom isn't the best person to talk to and my dad can only do so much. They found out about me being suicidal and shrugged it off as my hormones. ...

I have been thinking about masterbating again but I seem to fail every time. My first time trying I was maybe 12 and I was toying with my clit and managed to squirt but it wasn't pleasurable. And even now whenever I touch myself or any vaginal stimulation with my fingers it feels the same as me touc...