Security, i guess, i don't want to feel judged, i'm afraid of getting caught and that

Oof, okay, a friend told me to try asking for advices in here, and here's the thing: I'm seriously thinking about buying a dildo, i feel really panicked about that since i'm going to turn 17 in a few days and i never been on a sex shop or something, i feel panicked because i really want a sexual toy...