i just started seeing her when this rape happened. she is just a rape crisis counselor. I try to see her every week to every other week.

But after work I feel better today. I don't know if its temporary or what but I feel happier.

i will be fine. or at least I have to be. and the hospitals where I live aren't good. because my blood test one time I was starving myself and the gave my a couple of different medicines and sent me on my way

Ok I would like help

There is times I need my parent support but they don’t care. I started to self harm tonight and my dog laid on my hand where I couldn’t continue. I love my dogs but I’m terrifed about what’s happening to my self. And I’m lost because of it.

I don’t know what to say. I have to keep it to myself at work. But it’s horrible because I have to keep it to myself at home because sex because marriage means disowning in my family. I want help but anytime I told somebody anything it has come to bit me. I get let down or fired for reporting anythi...

No but more than likely I will call her tomorrow. I haven’t been able to call her because work conflicts. When I was younger it was easier to push it in the back of my mind. Now I break down at work. I find myself sleeping like an hour or 2 here and there and not sleeping at all through the whole ni...

I’m trying so hard to live a normal life. It’s just so hard because I don’t want to erase him. But I’m never drinking again. I’m also waiting to do any wedding stuff because I don’t want him to think he can hurt me and get away with it. But it’s hard to go to work and try and act happy since I work ...

I have the option the see a counselor but the only days she is by me is days I’m working. I ended up having to take a whole week off which is seriously going to affect me money wise. When I saw him last. He lost his cool hitting and kicking kid car. I’ve never been so afraid in my life. But I’m seri...

Since Sunday night I have had to call out of work Tuesday and Thursday, I also haven't had a appetite at all. I am afraid to sleep, i have tried to sleep and will just lay in bed and cry. I don't know how I am going to go back to work as a lifeguard. I feel like a horrible pet parent because I keep ...

Yes. I reported it and everything. I just want to forget it has happened. Yes I have talked to him and he admitted he did it when the cops asked him. But he says it was wanted both ways. I barely remember that night. So I can’t agree or disagree.

Yes I am religious and thank you. I will try and constantly remind myself that it’s not my fault.

I just hate how I made the mistake again to let people in my life and comes to bit me. Yes ma’am I will

As of today I am home with my Grammy. So I hope I am safe because he has work in an hour. As of right now he is blowing up my phone but I’m not responding. It hurts physically, emotional, and mentally. Because the one time I trust a guy that turn on me.

That’s where I’m at right now is thinking about that. Because I can’t constantly be in fear of that. It was my first night drinking in public and it comes to bit me in the butt.

Obviously I still care. But I’m semi afraid of if he does this now what can he do in the future.

Yes it’s his first time doing any of this. I set the boundaries where we wouldn’t even come close to it. He has never even been so close to it.

I am just going to lay in my bed. Till I can get ahold of somebody. Then hopefully we will talk and they offer support. I just don’t know what to do because I am already sick and no I’m hurting.

I have no clue. I’ve never had any help with previous rapes. At all I have no clue what’s needed

I’m just scared and confused

So yesterday I got really drunk with my fiancé but he was sober. Well we got home he had me have sex with him. I didn’t say no but my eyes where closed and I was whimpering. I don’t know what to do because he said I wouldn’t remember. But I’m drunk not stupid. I’ve been raped before so I don’t know ...

ITs good

Nothing really. I've just been staying in my room and working 15 hours a day. So by the time I come home I just go to bed. So I just try to avoid

ok thanks I will continue to look into it.

Yes he did. But at the time neither of us had a job. So we was kind of stuck in the situation. But now I have 3 and he has 1. I try and stay awake till they go to bed and wake up before they do. I stay in my room unless they need me. Or if they need to cut grass or something else because they don't ...