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by carot18
Thu Dec 28, 2017 3:10 pm
Forum: Sexual Health
Topic: Small Bumps
Replies: 3
Views: 2692

Re: Small Bumps

I'm afraid no one can diagnose you or anyone else like this over the internet. To get a sound diagnosis, you'll need to see your healthcare provider, and they will do a visual exam, and then run any tests they feel they may need to if that visual exam by itself doesn't give them the information the...
by carot18
Sun Dec 24, 2017 12:39 pm
Forum: Sexual Health
Topic: Small Bumps
Replies: 3
Views: 2692

Small Bumps

I have some small flesh colored bumps on my labia that are somewhat clustered. They aren’t painful or itchy and they’ve been there for a bit. I have had some itchiness on my pubic hair, but that looks like ingrown hairs from hair regrowth. I have pretty severe health anxiety associated with a cancer...
by carot18
Wed Nov 29, 2017 12:30 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Thank you so much! I really appreciate the support! I hope it all goes okay.
by carot18
Wed Nov 29, 2017 11:41 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I think I want to use the option of just providing the information and letting them ask the equal opportunity and compliance representative if his university has any questions for me. I just don't think I'm going to ask for an investigation at this point, but this doesn't close that door for me if I...
by carot18
Wed Nov 29, 2017 11:21 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Hi Heather, It's really hard to deal with and the flashbacks make it worse. I'm leaning towards just writing out everything that happened and giving it to his university and then seeing if they want to conduct an investigation. I think that would be if he had more complaints than just me. I don't kn...
by carot18
Tue Nov 28, 2017 11:41 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I've really been struggling over the last little bit. I've started having flashbacks about him coming inside me. I worry now that I dissociated more and I'm going to remember more happened in a few months. I recently found out I could report this information to his university without requesting an i...
by carot18
Thu Nov 23, 2017 10:47 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

That does seem helpful, thank you alice! I think I might journal a little about that tonight.
by carot18
Wed Nov 22, 2017 6:33 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Thank you, Alice! It’s hard because I go through bouts of doubt and wondering if it really was an accident even though I know it really wasn’t. That does make sense; I’m going to try to think about a time. I just think most the stuff I’ve gotten over has taken a long time, so it makes me sad to know...
by carot18
Mon Nov 20, 2017 9:47 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I realized how silly yet again it was for me to put a timeline on healing. I’m really trying to do a lot to heal and that’s really all I can do right now.
by carot18
Wed Nov 15, 2017 8:43 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Today I sat down with my therapist and I actually told her the whole story. Or at least the pieces that I can remember in the order that I can remember. I still feel an intense sense of "this shouldn't be such a big deal" but I'm also trying to remember that everything that I consented to ...
by carot18
Mon Nov 06, 2017 8:35 am
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Thank you for the advice! I’m going to keep up with the journaling. The sexual assault counselor mentioned I could write down my thoughts when they happen and then I could see how they change overtime, so I’ve been doing that. i hope it helps and i hope it just gets better everyday
by carot18
Sun Nov 05, 2017 11:09 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Is it normal to feel like some hours are really good and positive and some aren’t? I feel like even seeing my therapist and sexual assault counselor isn’t always enough to feel happy for a long period of time. I take anti-depressants for something unrelated to this. I’ve started journaling and I’m h...
by carot18
Sat Nov 04, 2017 1:53 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

It's been really hard talking to people who don't deem my experience as assault. Because it feels absolutely awful and I wish that everyone could understand what I'm going through. It goes beyond the internet and into my friends. The Women's Center was actually so helpful and I'm so glad I went. I'm...
by carot18
Thu Nov 02, 2017 10:48 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I can’t help but feel like it want rape so I should just forget about it. I wish it were that easy and I could just put this out of my mind. I’m worried they’re not going to take me seriously at the Women’s center tomorrow. I’m tired of feeling like only half of my friends get it and I’m tired of fe...
by carot18
Wed Nov 01, 2017 9:39 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Thank you! I hope it goes okay.
by carot18
Wed Nov 01, 2017 7:50 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Hi Alice, It hasn't really happened yet, but I think it needs to. I'm looking towards Saturday afternoon. I also think it might give me some time to reflect after my meeting with the sexual assault counselor but before my weekly appointment with my therapist. I feel like a lot I've been dealing with...
by carot18
Wed Nov 01, 2017 6:04 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Thank you so much again everyone, I’m going to talk to someone at the women’s center at my university on Friday and I really hope it helps to talk this through. I really appreciate everyone’s support
by carot18
Wed Oct 25, 2017 9:25 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Hi Alice, Thank you! I’m going to remember the mantra and repeat it to myself as much as I need to. Thank you. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that my feelings are valid and that I’m not being dramatic. I do have two classes that day so it may be an afternoon of self-care, but I will try to schedule...
by carot18
Wed Oct 25, 2017 8:58 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Hi Alice, I just don’t understand why they thought they could answer that way. You’re right I do think it makes sense, but it’s just hard to believe I’m still feeling like this. The mantra is a really good idea and I think I’m going to try to remember that when I feel sad or anxious. I think I’m goi...
by carot18
Wed Oct 25, 2017 6:10 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I do want support and I'm working on getting it from more valid sources. I just wish I could feel better, but I'm not sure when that will be. It's starting to affect my life too which is scary and stressful. I feel like I'm letting people down, but I wish I could just rest for a few days. I feel lik...
by carot18
Tue Oct 24, 2017 4:20 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I don’t know why they felt like those were appropriate responses. I think me posting on there was a self-defeating response. I just can’t help but blame myself but I’m really trying not to. Thank you, me too. I’m hoping to go on Thursday.
by carot18
Tue Oct 24, 2017 2:52 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

I made the mistake of clicking that yahoo link and holy shit those responses are awful, I'm sorry. None of the people responding know what they're talking about and honestly sound like they shouldn't have sex themselves, being on tinder/inviting a person into the home is not automatic consent. You ...
by carot18
Tue Oct 24, 2017 2:49 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Hi Carot, I'm sorry you're having a flare-up of rough emotions. That's not at all surprising, given that you're still in the middle of processing what happened, so as much as you can try not to blame yourself or call yourself overdramatic. You're reacting in a common way to something really bad bei...
by carot18
Mon Oct 23, 2017 8:14 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

So I'm starting to feel like I'm just being overdramatic and I'm getting really sad and anxious and I don't know what to do. I know it's not cut and dry but I feel like the fact that I'm this upset about it means something really happened. I posted my question in yahoo answers which seems really dum...
by carot18
Thu Oct 19, 2017 4:41 pm
Forum: Abuse & Assault
Topic: Assault?
Replies: 61
Views: 22974

Re: Assault?

Yes I don't think I'm going to go into any more details about the situation. I don't think it's worth it especially because I have support from my friends. I think I am going to contact a rape crisis center and see if they can help me. Thanks for your help!