I am so confused about why my boyfriend is looking at shemale porn. It has torn my heart out and has caused us to split. I cannot stomach the thought of touching him thinking that he may be gay or bi. I have gone over and over in my mind about what this infatuation is. I am wondering also if it could be a fetish because he was born with one testicle and feels like a freak himself? I am sick over this.

I'm a 13 year old girl and HATE being a GIRL. I have the mind strength hands feet and hairiness of a boy but still have the body of a girl complete with boobs. Is there something wrong with me wanting to be a boy?

My girlfriend and I share many fantasies etc. all the time. Yesterday, she told me that, quite often, when she's fantasizing while masturbating, as she approaches orgasm she begins to be the man, having something sexual done to his/her/its penis, and that when she's coming, she's envisioning the penis ejaculating (which I'm sure is normal) and that SHE is the bearer of the ejaculating penis! I know I've read over and over again on related sites (like jackinworld) that fantasizing about the same sex during masturbation is common and healthy, but I've never seen anything about this! Is this normal too, or should I be wondering whether she's transsexual/transgendered (whether she realizes it or not)??

Since I was four years old, I've wanted to be perceived as male. Up until recently, this never meant being "masculine" but just being called 'he, sir, him,' etc. I used to wear baggy clothes and do nothing with my long hair. then when I turned ten, I had some pressure to dress more feminine but it wasn't rejected by me. I then cut my hair really short. When a girl at school said she thought I was a guy "for a second", I was overjoyed.

With my girl/friends (non sexual) I feel awkward. I don't know what the heck they're saying sometimes! Although, in high school I did get smart and realize that to get to know the ladies, it helped to act interested in makeup and clothes. *guilty face* With my dude friends, I feel more comfortable having guys more sensitive than me. also, guys who are into gay rights even if they're straight. I like know that I just as "guyish" as them. When I have/had boyfriends, it's a competition. I want to make sure I ask him out first, put the "moves" on him (not sex but kissing and such). I've never liked the thought of having intercourse (as a girl.) When I have girlfriends, it's a competition because they want to force me into a feminine role. I'm starting to think the best girl for me would be a straight woman who is open-minded and doesn't mind a strap-on instead of a real penis. I don't know!

Writing short stories and fan fiction has always been my way to vent. I always act/write as the males and as one of my friends pointed out, I write stereotypical female characters who are there to "be pretty." I don't want to be that type of guy!!! but to be honest, being a jerk (in a gentle way) is sometimes a turn-on. i guess the extreme of it is exciting, it's sooo traditional and stereotypical.

Lately, my identity is getting more masculine. I'm trying to go for clothes that I like, not that "looks good" on me by other peoples' standards. However, I have sometimes fit into the female role. I used to be "boy crazy" but I don't know if that was a gimmick. getting called "girly" has always annoyed me.

I hate to admit it but I am TERRIFIED. I can't focus in school, every thought of mine is about gender..My mom is worried. no one knows why I'm not at a university (i'm at community college).. I just am not as interested in school as in my gender and I can't stand it. Every day is weird. I hate my body, and I hate the perceptions of me.