So I've dreamed about my current boyfriend before - I remember most of my dreams and I dream about all the people I know, so those previous dreams were fine. But last night I had a really weird sex dream about my boyfriend and I'm confused about what it means.
In my dream my boyfriend and I were in a bed together and we both talked about sex, saying we both wanted it. (Partially true in real life, since I keep thinking about it but I'm not yet sure if I want to have penetrative sex.) So then the dream switched and we were trying to find a place to do it. Everything was weird and uncomfortable though because everywhere we went was unclean and there were people everywhere.
I told my boyfriend about it this morning, and we talked about our relationship a bit. We really miss each other and he speculated the dream was probably because I missed being close to him in person, etc. I think so too, but the whole dream was just unnatural and weird and it bothered me. Because the longer I think about it, the more I want to be more sexual with my boyfriend once we can see each other in person again. But this dream made sex seem wrong and dirty and it made me really confused about my own desires. I'm just kinda weirded out and some reassurance about my relationship would be great. Like, I have anxiety sometimes because of how I was treated by my ex, so I need someone to tell me my current relationship is entirely different, and that the idea of my boyfriend and I having sex/being more sexual isn't 'dirty' or 'wrong' like the dream made me feel.
Also, I know Valentine's day is coming up and so is our six-month anniversary so maybe that's part of it? I just miss him and knowing he misses me just as much makes me feel worse.