Sam W wrote:Ooof, I know from folks in my own life that Lexapro alone can make it harder to masturbate orgasm. I think it's really sound that your therapist is approaching this both from the medication angle and from the internal thoughts and feelings angle. It sounds like you're making progress talking to her about it, which is awesome!
What if, for the next little while, you aimed to only masturbate when you were feeling arousal (even if it's mostly the simmering kind)? Our brains play such a big role in how we experience pleasure that if they're not super engaged and aroused, masturbation is unlikely to feel great or lead to orgasm. Too, once you start masturbating, is it pretty easy to fall into a fantasy or other thoughts that keep you turned on? Or does your brain kind of space out or start worrying/thinking about other stuff?
Oh, my therapist and psychiatrist are two different people, fyi! Therapist is a grad student being monitored who I'm finally opening up to while the psychiatrist has an established practice and the degree to prescribe medication whom I originally brought this up to. But my psychiatrist has agreed to play with my meds a little bit, so far only upping my lamictal (25mg->50mg) and seeing what it does. (So far, hasn't made me feel any different so I think that one is safe!)
While I appreciate the advice, my sexy drive and testosterone unfortunately don't always agree. It's fickle and really only wants to activate, so to speak, when I'm in bed or, rarely, during the day and I have downtime. I did my dose for the week (100mg in 0.5mL IM) so in a day or two it'll feel unbearable, like I have to masturbate just to take the edge off or else I'll go nuts.
To answer the second question, it
is easy to fall into fantasy but I also worry that how I experience arousal isn't normal? Or I suppose "typical" is the better word. It's there but it's rather subtle? It's hard to explain but, while I can and do find certain things sexy and arousing, it's not important in the grand scheme. Clitoral stimulation is the only reason why I even get anywhere. I've never been one to "get wet" while aroused (or perhaps I don't secrete much lubricant) but I
feel arousal in a sense but it's on the back burner.