I'm a 17 year old girl and my boyfriend-person-thing (kind of) is 28 years old. We live across the world, but text everyday and night when one is waking up and the other is going to sleep.
I've never been in a real relationship before, but he is slow and steady, and very sweet to me. I like him a lot, and he says he feels the same. At first, he didn't want to do anything because of our age gap, but we ended up liking each other anyways. It's been a few weeks since we met and things have been going really well.
Recently, he's started to bring up sex and I'm not sure what to do. I've never even kissed someone, and my sex ed. wasn't exactly the most informative, so I don't know much. I also have body issues, so whenever I think about me eventually getting intimate with someone, I think that they're going to be repulsed or disgusted by me.
He doesn't make me talk about anything or force me, but is curious to know what I think about sex and eventually losing my virginity. I know there is also a difference in culture between the countries we grew up in (his is much more liberal about intimacy and affection), but I can't help but feel it's frustrating for him. He always apologizes and offers to stop talking about it if I say I'm uncomfortable or anything along those lines, which I greatly appreciate. He's quick to reassure me everything is okay and to take things at my own pace, and assures me he'll be as respectful as he can, and he'll guide me in anything I need. Even though, I'm still always embarrassed and wary when talking about it.
What can I do to get over my embarrassment and become more comfortable with talking about sex and exploration with him?