hii im new, sorry if this is in the wrong section- feel free to move it.
i'm prone to rambling, apologies if this gets rly lengthy/off topic or i forget to mention something
im 20 and never had any sort of partnered sex before; i've been wanting to masturbate as something of a mindful, self love act. but my recent discoveries have me to believe that im on the autistic spectrum with symptoms of adhd, and to top it all off, a cognitive impairment from having been an extreme case of a premature birth; im also currently unable to get a diagnosis for eiether of these.
i know the things that turn me on and the places that do, but even when im aroused, i find it difficult to "progress" further despite rubbing the head of my clit and the entrance of my vagina-- physically and mentally, etc i could be turned on but i quickly lose my focus and or i struggle keeping the fun thoughts in mind.
i've also noticed that i don't really get turned on from my physical touches; its not that i dont enjoy it, it just seems that sex is more of a mental/emotional thing for me rather than physical?
has/is anyone facing a similar dillema? i feel like i might be the only one with this peculiar issue so any sort of feedback on this will be greatly appreciated