I am a 19-year-old girl. In terms of sexuality, I identify as somewhere between heteroflexible and bisexual (between a 2 and 3 on the Kinsey scale), but don't have a specific label for it.
I have only ever felt romantic feelings for men, but feel sexually attracted to both men and women equally. (although have never really been in a position to develop romantic feelings for someone of the same sex)
I have only ever had relationships with men, and only ever had sex with men although I have kissed members of both sexes and enjoyed it equally.
I am in a new (3 months) relationship with a boy that I really really love. He has been one of my best and closest friends in the last year and we started dating in January. I am monogamous and a very loyal person in terms of relationships... meaning that I have never been tempted to cheat or explore other options while in a relationship.
I have had one very healthy previous relationship with a boy which lasted about a year, and when that ended I decided not to pursue another relationship until I had taken time to grow individually and explore my sexuality more... and I really wasn't planning on being in another relationship for a long time. However, in my time between relationships I never really had an opportunity to do explore in the way I intended to. And when the opportunity arose to date one of my very best friends, it felt foolish to let that pass me by.
At the moment I am in a very happy and very healthy relationship with an absolutely incredible straight male, and am very much in love with him.
My dilemma is that I feel like I never had an opportunity to pursue or explore my sexuality with the same sex, and my current relationship feels like it is on track to last for a very long time (and I certainly want it to).
I still fantasize and wonder about what it would be like to be with a woman. My current boyfriend is aware and very supportive of my sexual identity and is also very monogamous. Meaning that so long as we are together I do not think he would be comfortable with me exploring the possibility of having sex with a woman. I don't have any desire to cheat or be intimate with anyone else because I am very happy. But I can't help but wonder. I am concerned that I will miss my opportunity to fully understand and explore my sexual identity due to a lack of experience and opportunity.
Moving forward, I am still interested in exploring this, but am not sure how to navigate that or how to communicate that to my current partner. I know it would hurt him if I told him I wanted to be intimate with someone else, but I am concerned about moving forward into a very serious relationship without fully understanding my sexuality. I would seriously appreciate any advice about how to navigate this.