so, i have a topic that may be a trigger warning for some people.
i am a 19 year old female. when i was 17, i was sexually assaulted. i’ve since healed emotionally and physically, and i have a boyfriend who loves and cares for me very much. he makes me feel safe and comfortable. so, i’ve decided that i’m ready to have sex. (we’re quarantined together)
my boyfriend has always been extremely careful with me so that i’m always comfortable. but lately, it’s been to the point where i want more from him and he feels scared to do anything more because of my past. it hurts that he’s scared to love me physically. i’ve been doing things that imply that i want to have sex. i’ve tried wearing lingerie when i’m with him, which only gets as far as making out, and saying i look beautiful. when i flat out tell him i’m ready to have sex, he says he’s ready too, then we’ll make out with some extra touching and things just... stop. he’s worried he’ll hurt me or trigger a bad memory. i want to ease into sex, because i don’t want to move too fast for myself either. if there are any tips on how to ease one another into sex, i’ll appreciate it. i want both of us to feel sexually satisfied.