Ever since I was 11 years old, I have had a kink for male ballet dancers; this started with a photo while going through encyclopedia volumes stored in the basement. This then resulted in masturabatory fantasies involving dancing with and having a romantic relationship with one.
After a dry spell in sexual feelings lasting a few years, I started looking at photos of danseurs again, and felt an amazing rush of pleasure and sexual release. It felt like I reunited with a former lover.
I am a cisgender female virgin, and have not dated since high school (no sexual or romantic behaviors with these relationships). I'm not sure I want to start dating again, due to lack of experience and fear of being disappointed in a relationship.
How common is this type of sexual situation, and should I be concerned?