I've been dating this guy for a few months, we were friends beforehand. we're both 17. i really really like him, hes hot, hes funny he makes me so happy and i love being around him. but the problem is i think im poly or something. i kind of just want to have casual sex with other people. weve talked about this and he is not okay with me doing this. but i can't stop thinking about it. i feel awful that im thinking about cheating on him but i also feel awful not being able to do it.
our relationship is pretty much perfect otherwise. i really love him and being around him and such so i really don't want to break up with him. but is it the right thing to do? am i wrong if i keep dating him when i know i cant be how he wants me to be?
also even if we were to break up I'd feel too awful sad and guilty to even kiss anyone else also it would ruin my friend group and I'd have no friends again really.