Hi. I know we’ve talked about this prior and like I don’t even know why I’m here again. I just am lonely. I want someone else in my life so bad. I know no one is perfect and everyone has like red flags and I broke up with someone I love because of them. That’s not right. He thought I was attractive and wanted to touch me all the time and yes I didn’t like it most of the time but I thought he was the one.
When I think about it in retrospect, I left someone because he liked me a lot and wanted to have sex, and have pleasure from me. That’s really the summary of it. Yes, I said no and he did things anyways but he just liked me and wanted to be close to me. I miss him so much and as the sun sets and it gets dark, I miss him even more. I wake up and I just wanna talk to him. I want to be in his arms again. Some days I don’t even think about him and other days it’s like I can’t breathe because I miss him.
I’m trying to find girl friends online and like a companion and I am open about being asexual and no one bothers to match me, but when I act promiscuous they all match me. I hate it so much.