So when I was a kid, my parents were kinda against me dating or having feelings for a boy (at least that's the vibe they were giving off), and so whenever a boy in school has a crush on me, I get terrified cuz I remembered all those scary stories that my parents said or just media in general saying that "girls getting harmed for dating with guys" kind of thing.
Of course, I know my parents were just trying to protect me and whatnot, and there really was this boy that spread rumors of me and him being in a relationship, therefore causing a bunch of chaos. I even blocked a guy who confessed his attraction towards me because I was just panicking that he would harm me and I 'want my own space'! (To be real tho, that last guy did bullied me in school, so...)
I just think all these things made me scared of boys, or relationship in general. Even though I know the guys around me now are mostly nice and these are rare events, I still find it hard to text a guy without having a small panic attack, or whenever they be nice to me, my brain just replays all those bad events involving relationship. Things are also getting sorta worse since I'm having a small crush on someone right now.
These kind of things are really hard to discuss with my parents and I'd like some reassuring words or advice. Thanks in advance!