I'm 18 years old but I don't even feel even close to being an adult and I hope posting on here is okay. I turned 18 about six weeks ago, and nothing about me has really changed.
I have been going out with my personal trainer from my gym for a few weeks, and he is 9 years older than me. I have known him since I was 15 and he has been my personal trainer for the last year and he is also my mom's personal trainer.
I had sex with him a couple nights ago, and while I was having sex the age difference just started attacking my mind. I have always found him attractive but I was always too young, but now I'm old enough and I got to do what I kind of always thought about wanting to do and then I was asking myself why I was doing it. I'm not a virgin, I have had partners, but this one just was really different for me.
Should I keep seeing him or should I walk away? Should I even find any of this creepy at all? He is a really nice guy, he has never tried to do anything inappropriately with me at all, but the age difference is really killing me right now.