basically, i have a vagina, ive tried to finger myself and use a toy, but it never works out. For context, whenever i touch myself i only rub over my clit until i m good. sometimes i have the urge to shove something inside which is like woa, but whenever i try it it s either uncomfortable, feels like nothing or simply painful.
I don t self lubricate much, or at all idk, i haven t ever been wet like other people are when they get turned on or when they cum (is just stimulating the clit considered cumming?), but i ve read that with lube it should be fine. so i went ahead and got lube, got a toy, and tried to be patient and get to it, first with fingers, but i can barely fit 2 and it hurts and feels veeery tight at the entrance (the actual inside is pretty spacious lol)
so no hope of fitting the toy in, felt painful even with fingers, and i m wondering if it was the lube that was an issue? it was water based and felt like it was drying up quick. it was extremely frustrating and i felt like crying to be honest. i want to get a better one and try for the final time, but until then, what should i do? i have a feeling this particular time it was especially bad because the lube sucked, but even other times when i had ok lube, when i got stuff inside it just... didn t feel like anything.
or it felt good for a bit, then it all went away and i couldn t get the good feeling to come back. (that was my best attempt yet)
i want to be able to do this myself so if i get a lover in the future i don t start crying out of frustration because i can t get anything in me even though i want to :( (also because i want to feel this type of pleasure too, not just what i was doing previously yknow)