i couldn't resist and ended up taking 4 pregnancy tests, even though according to the website there wasn't really any risk.
They all seemed negative but had a colourless line (as it was a pinkdye test)
can i be sure that they were all negatives?
they said that the result would be positive if there were 2 coloured lines and there was only one coloured line and the colourless one i am guessing was an evaporation line because of the urine.
As long as you took the tests according to the directions about when and how to test, you can assume you're not pregnant. You can read more about that here: Peeing on a Stick: All About Pregnancy Tests.
Since it sounds like anxiety is playing a big role here, going forward I'm going to ask that we focus our conversations here on helping you connect to resources for managing that. I believe I gave you some links to mental health resources in your area awhile back. Have you been able to connect to or utilize any of those?