Hello. During this entire year, I have not really been doing much, or anything productive, really. Usually, I wake up, play video games, draw, do schoolwork, and then go to work. I'm not very active outside, and I have not thought about college like I'm supposed to (I don't even want to think about college until I can do it in person without masks). I keep thinking that nothing will ever get better, and I often think of how pointless and meaningless everything I do really is, despite lots of it being stuff I love and enjoy. The election is something I've been really worried about, and living in a mostly white Trump supporting town does not help. I am not depressed or suicidal at all, but I thought about shooting myself in the head if Trump won the election this year. I would never act on that thought, but the thought has crossed my head a few times. I really want to meet more friends like me, but my mom thinks the only way to do that is by doing volunteer work and stuff like that, and I still have not met anyone who actually clicks with me. I really don't feel very happy about anything. I really just want more friends around this stupid small town.