Hi UnderSkrt,
There's no one, specific way everyone feels about porn, nor is there one way someone is "supposed" to feel about it. Some people love it, some people hate it, some people use it occasionally, some feel it's not for them, and so on. We actually have a a whole article about making sense of porn:
Making Sense of Sexual Media.
Too, at 14, technically places that produce or host porn aren't going to be accessible to you. So, it may be helpful for now to focus on using other things to masturbate. You mention fantasies don't seem to work for you. Can you say a little more about why that us?