First of all sorry for my bad english..
Hello dear community, I am a 22 years old girl and have always identified myself as straight. I have a boyfriend by my side for 5 years now, whom I love and have only been attracted to men ever since. When I was at the experimental age however, I used to kiss my girlfriends, but only to impress the boys around (I know, totally silly and stupid ..), but never felt any excitement during this. For me, women were always either friends or competitors.
One thing, however, does not fit into my pattern: when i was between 13 and 19 years i watched porn, and almost exclusively with female actresses (girl on girl). It was really about the woman, what she likes, which was never the case in 'normal' porn .. I felt much more comfortable with it. Furthermore I always had struggles with my body und always thought, that men think that vaginas are gross (just like i do), so i could not relax during straight porn because i projected myself into that woman and felt embarrassment und had the feeling, that she cant enjoy it either.
But is it normal to be straight and like girl on girl porn? My other friends were watching this kind of porn, too, actually..I also had some fantasies in this direction, but I never wanted actively try them out in real life because I don't feel attracted to women.But I fantasized like 10 times during sex with my boyfriend about the lesbian porn to relax more (again: I am quite unsure about my body..). Now I ask myself whether there are more straight women who are into lesbian porn or should I question something? For me it was always a fantasy world, but nothing more and I didn't want to actively try it all in real life. That was a couple of years ago, meanwhile I am no longer interested in this content, but I find the question still interesting .. thanks