Yep, Treatment would include therapy, which you've said you're looking for an appropriate person with.
When I say healing I mean the the types of improvements in mood, health and whatnot that can happen when we are having a break from stressful situations, whether that's time off work, time off sex, or time off weight-lifting. It's more of an automatic thing than treatment.But
it aleady sounds like a sex-break is a big no for you so we don't need to dwell on the possible benefits of a thing you don't want to do.
Just rewinding and looking through your posts, I saw that there was a post back in October that said a lot to me about where you're coming from, including having experienced an assault... I feel like it'd be worth including some of that here, because it seems super relevant.
It really doesn't feel like I'm the one who decides what I should do and what's good for me.
...what I do or would do in sex isn't portrayed anywhere so I feel like an invalid freak. Feels like I'm broken
Nothing really helps me when I get dysphoric. Almost everything I do just worsens it. Only playing games and detaching from reality can help. I meant both sexual intimacy and physical intimacy including hugs, touch and kisses.
It sounds like there is a big sense that everything, even things which have enjoyable elements are inevitably upsetting because of this sense that you
So when we say "Hey this tactic might work", the suggestion perhaps doesn't matter as it doesn't account for the deeper feeling that no tactic will take away the fact that you have to be you, including the body you have and the brokenness that feels baked in to your transness. With all off that going on, oooooh gosh it's a hard thing to approach but I'm glad we're here and still thinking about it.
How do you feel about those quotes... I imagine you still feel similarly?
The gaming part made me think about how it's important to have something
that helps us escape when we need it. I also have some thoughts about that desire to feel our sex and sexuality portayed, if you'd like to go down that route?
"In between two tall mountains there's a place they call lonesome.
Don't see why they call it lonesome.
I'm never lonesome when I go there." Connie Converse - Talkin' Like You