I'm really sorry that you're having these invasive, negative feelings about your body. We actually have this amazing
lil roundup of articles and songs to help folks out of a low self-esteem rut here
. I would love for you to check it out and see if anything there feels helpful.
Do you use Instagram, Tumblr, or other social media? I've found it's really helpful to follow people who have body types like mine that I think are super stunning! It's really reassuring to see someone like me feeling super confident.