So, earlier this year, I got busted for selling Adderall at school. My brother used to take it and he left behind an almost full bottle when he moved out in the fall. I've never done drugs for any reason, but I knew some people who sometimes use Adderall when they've got a lot of studying to do. So, I thought, what the heck? I could probably make a lot of money dealing to them. And it didn't seem like dealing real drugs, y'know? I wish now that I'd thought more about the consequences of getting busted than about the cash to be made. I might not be in this mess now if I had.
Not only was I expelled (I'm finishing out the school year at a private school that was willing to take me), but I was arrested too. My parents had to hire me a lawyer and he's managed to work out a deal. Since I was 16 at the time (I've since turned 17), I could've been tried as an adult. The prosecution has agreed to let me plead out in juvenile court and be sentenced as a juvenile. But, I'm going to have to spend 90 days in juvie. The fact that I was dealing on school grounds pretty much guaranteed that I'd have to spend at least some time locked up, according to my lawyer.
My court date is on the first Friday of June. I'll be accepting the deal then. So, I'm going to be spending the entire summer break in between my junior and senior year in jail. And I've got so many emotions whirling around in my head because of that. I'm angry at myself for doing something so stupid and for letting down my parents like this. I'm worried about how people at my new school will treat me when they hear how I spent my summer vacation. I'm worried about how this conviction will affect my ability to get into a good college. And, of course, I'm petrified at the thought of being locked up for three months. The only bright side to any of this is that I'll be serving my sentence while school is out, so I won't have that to worry about.
I wish more than anything that I could turn back time so I could stop myself from getting into all this trouble. God, why did I have to be so fucking stupid?!?!
I don't know if anyone will have any advice for me but I appreciate you all for listening. I really needed to get this all out to somebody.