I've been debating for a long time whether to lose my virginity to a stranger or just wait to give it to someone "special". There are a lot of complicated factors that are influencing my hesitation.
On the one hand, apparently, virgin men are not attractive. I read online that girls tend to prefer men with at least a little experience under their belt. Now I don't know if this applies to girls who are looking for a relationship or just the ones looking for a "good time" but I do know that humans are selfish creatures. There are certain physical aspects about people that will immediately turn someone off.
I'm not horrible looking and have a sweet and goofy personality but that's the kind of thing that one will only discover after giving you a chance. Other than that, I'm a virgin, a person with aspergers, I'm 5'6" so I'm not exactly tall, and I really, really like video games. I imagine that kind of cuts down my attrativeness, and thus my first impressions, a lot. If I get rid of my virginity and gain some practice, I could train myself to be more confident and learn how to flirt and act attractive. I think the demand for superficial stuff gets less and less as you grow into your 30s, but I'm really into the energy and playfulness of youth and young love, so if it's just going to push people away, I don't know if waiting is worth it
On the other hand, there's the concept of losing your virginity that holds me back. There are people who keep saying that they regret losing their virginity to a stranger but I'm guessing that most of them are girls, so I don't know if it applies to me. People keep saying that it all depends on what my virginity means to me, but here's the thing; I don't know what it means to me. I know "virginity" is just a word and not an actual thing but at the same time, I just don't know.
To sum up my dilemma, I want to be with someone special who I can have a good time with and get close to, but if it ends up being an obstacle that's just going to get in the way of a 20s romance, I don't know if it's worth it.
And yeah, maybe I'm just playing into my fantasies a bit with this 20s romance thing, but I just can't seem to shake it. There's just something about it that draws me to it more than any other age range