But I've never had an orgasm as far as I know. I get the urge to stimulate my genitals, then the urge to do sexual things gets stronger as I stimulate, but can never get any release, and I also don't really very many special things physically besides a very small feeling of arousal from time to time in my crotch. It's mainly just an urge that just gets worse the more I act on it. I have a few theories, but no idea which one is most likely.
- I have ADHD, anxiety and depression, so I take several meds. One of those meds is Sertraline, which I read can have effects on sexual health. However, when I brought it up to my mom, she said that usually only happens to boys, so IDK if medication actually has anything to do with it.
- Another reason could be that I tend to get either bored or physically tired of masturbating fairly fast. Many of my 'sessions' aren't really long enough to actually be considered sessions, they're more so me just attempting to stimulate myself for 30 seconds to a minute or two, then stopping. When I try stroking my clitoris, I get impatient and tend to give up and decide to try again later. When I try pillow humping, I start getting weary before I start to feel anything major. On the occasions where I do make an effort to do things for more than a little while, not much happens.
- Lastly, I've also done research, and a lot of sources online say that unless you're already watching something sexual while masturbating, like porn, it's important to come up with some sort of fantasy while doing it. I've always struggled with this ever since I first started having sexual thoughts for a specific reason. Long story short, I have a pretty odd kink. I don't feel 100% comfortable saying what my kink is, but it's somewhat bizarre and a bit more obscure than the classic BDSM kinks. Whenever I try to come up with a fantasy for myself while masturbating, it tends to end up involving my kink, which embarrasses me and snaps me out of the immersion. So I tend to either masturbate while avoiding forming a fantasy, or masturbate while embarrassed and self doubting due to feeling like a weird person.
So what's most likely? One of these things? A combination of these things? Something else entirely?
And Is there a term when you feel the urge to do sexual acts, but it feels kinda empty and unfulfilling when you do it, and the urge just gets worse as you try to satisfy it?