So I was dating this guy from February2021 to about June and the first time we got sexual it was pretty great we were watching Spirited Away and it was just clothed grinding and touching. After that he got really touchy-feely and it made me uncomfortable but I was too scared to say anything. He would put his hand close to my butt in my lower back and kiss me with too much tongue even when I pulled back. Like a few weeks after our first time I invited him to my house to hang out in the hot tub. Things were ok at first but then he wanted to start making out and I was kinda in the mood too but I was uncomfortable with my dad being right near the window. He was very instant and would try to finger me while we were kissing without asking. The only time I really said anything was when he tried to finger my butt because he couldn’t find the right hole. He really wanted to do it with me and I felt pressured to say yes so I went with him up to the balcony and he started rubbing my “area” really hard and I was just uncomfortable the whole time and I didn’t want to upset him so I just faked my orgasam. After that I felt a little bit of discomfort around him but I chose not to pay attention to it. He continued to be super touchy and like a month later, I had him come over to my house to bake cookies. We were flirting and stuff, then my mom left to go to the store and my dad wasn’t home so we decided to fool around a bit. I was comfortable with just grinding while clothed but he wanted more. We didn’t have actual penetrative sex but my naked part was against his and he attempted to fuck my chest without warning me and I got really uncomfortable so I backed out and said that I wasn’t in the mood. After that I felt extremely uncomfortable around him and whenever I think about those times I want to cry and get rid of my body all together I can’t even watch Spirited Away anymore because the thought of him just makes me feel awful. I have to see him at school everyday which really sucks.
I just need some words of advice.