Oh, I never had qualms about being to find a partner and have a healthy relationship while I have my disability. What I'm worried about is getting into a relationship where my partner
A. Is really immature (I get really frustrated with my peers in school because a very vocal minority does not listen or try at all and don't take anything seriously)
B. Can't handle having to help me with my disability (even if they could, I'm sure a lot of people my age are just simply not equipped with the understanding or patience it takes to maintain a relationship when their partner needs help upstairs or with cooking or potentially even a full-time driver if the Department of Rehabilitation doesn't work out in helping me drive)
Then there's the fact I'm probably going to need a lot of help in sex, considering I get tired standing longer than 5 mins and don't even have enough strength to get on my damn knees. I love roleplaying helplessness and especially femdom, but to be actually fairly unable to do a lot of things and being physically shoehorned into having to let my partner do a lot of the work rather than letting my partner strip the control I have away from me is actually kinda depressing. Again, nothing that wouldn't work out in a fully-fledged relationship, but for someone who hasn't ever even had a crush on a non-fictional person, let alone kissing and especially having sex with someone, it's scary and kinda puts a dampener on things, especially with the stress that comes with trying to be a straight-A student and future prospects of college. I don't know if I can add relationship stress to 'The Long List of Things Very, Very Wrong With Me.' (Which is another reason why I wish I could just roleplay and/or sext so I could indulge myself without the dangers of physically involved relationships)
To answer your question, with school in-person coming back after summer, it'll be fairly easy to find people my age, but between my dual credit classes and NJROTC, I don't know if I'll even have the time to talk to ppl at school, what with the terrible '5-minutes between classes' and no more rule. And even then, if I could roleplay or just sext with a partner online, the sexting laws have not caught up with the modern world.
And with my disability comes another caveat: My parents. I'd have to die of embarrassment just to get the question of going out with a girl (and God forbid, a guy) out. And then I'd have to be like "OK, cool. Just wanted to let you know we'll probably be doing a lot of touchy stuff. No vaginal or anal sex, tho. Promise.
)))." And I feel gross just typing that out.
Speaking of gross, it's funny that that CP article you linked talked briefly about a scat fetish cuz hoo boy do I have a lot of gross kinks. I'm going to spare you the mental images and just going to say "I am a dirty, dirty boy." Which is another thing I'm worried about being a turn-off in the bedroom. This is why I'm so frustrated with age laws because I can't even simply identify people my age with those kinda likes, even if I would never try to roleplay them with anybody. I'd have to take the risk of finding people over and over again who would get past my disability and general appearance only to have my hopes dashed when they find out I'm into a bunch of weird stuff.
Am I overthinking things? Am I just being stoopid and missing an obvious solution or worrying too much?