Thank you so much for the reply, it really feels so much better that I have reassurance that nothing's wrong with me. Like I knew everyone is different but getting it directly explained like this is so helpful.
And that article is great, I never realized that the actors are told to have orgasms at certain points, it really is like porn is just like a movie with directors and everything (and like I'm comparing myself with superheroes and then getting upset that I can't fly or something like that
Especially this part was very helpful:
"Prior to that, the woman is often shown as being in near-constant ecstasy, despite the fact that, in terms of pleasure anatomy and other things we know play a big role in sexual satisfaction, the positions and acts are catered to the man’s orgasm. Whether the woman performer is experiencing (or faking) multiple orgasms, or experiencing no orgasm at all, is not often clear. "
I never really thought of it as being so focused on the guys pleasure alone.
This really makes me feel so much better about this, it would honestly be on my mind almost everytime I masturbated and made me feel like i was missing out. thank you so much, I have a lot to reflect on now