Ok so I don't really know how exactly to explain this fully, but I'll try. I'm 16 almost 17, and I think I started puberty maybe the end of grade 8 / start of grade 9, so I was maybe 14. Anyway I found out about masturbating, and I guess since the hormones were going crazy, anything even remotely about sex or girls would um work for doing it. But whenever I would do it, it was never in a way that was really in touch with my body and how it feels. Just lock the door, do it quickly for a few mins, and be done. (Also cause I was worried about ppl catching me).
Anyways, now that I'm older, I've realized that I still masturbate in the same hurried way, and I want to really get more in touch with my body and actually know what feels good and what I like. Instead of just like forcing it.
But I don't know what exactly turns me on or how I can explore that. Like in terms of porn or erotica, or what. Cause as I said before anything talking about sex or (sorry if this is TMI but just any pic of girls in less clothing) would do the trick before, but I guess not anymore. But I especially wanna start taking it slower and break the habit of rushing it, and idk what to do.
Sorry if this is confusing, I'd appreciate even a little bit of an answer on this cause I guess even I don't exactly know how everything fits together, and I can clarify stuff if it's needed. Thanks