Thanks for the replies. I am very happy that I found this place
I don't know what my comfort level is. As for my boundaries that is a line that has changed quite a bit these last 9 months. He is my best friend, I like him for who he is, but he is not my type and I don't find him sexually attractive (although he is very adorable and super funny). My mom likes him enough that he is even allowed in my bedroom, although it's probably because she knows that nothing would happen between us.
We have a close enough "friends" relationship that I went right to him right after I lost my virginity, and I had no problem crying with him and talking about it. I like the relationship that we have because he is different, he is not the normal boy in class, and I love him for it.
The sex we had a couple week ago was extremely basic penis/vagina stuff, no foreplay and no kissing and he didn't even want to see me naked. He was just curious and wanted to know what it was like. I did not feel obligated to do it, I found it funny that he asked, and I had no problem doing it with him, but I was thinking it was just a one time thing.
I think what I want to do is try it and see, but we are going to have a big talk about this before we do it! I guess he is curious and I am curious just as much but for different reasons? Or maybe I am just curious because he is?
I still don't understand why he is becoming somebody else with me, that is the one big question I have. I don't understand what he wants out of this, that is my other big question. Isn't he asking me to somewhat change my sexual orientation? Or maybe I could say that this is just fun and games between us and nothing more?
Should I ask him if he wants to be nonbinary? And how does that work? Is he a guy who likes guys one time and a guy that now likes girls the next? Or should I call him a they and let him see if they likes to be with a girl? But am I a nonbinary when I has sex with him? I am laughing with confusion btw, lol!
I did text him back and told him that we can talk about this and see what happens. I don't want to be in a rush about something like this.