School starts in 20 days for me and I feel so stressed about it. I'm waking up startled everyday remembering that the beginning of the school year is coming closer.
I have few clothes to wear, only two pairs of jeans, a pair of sweat pants, and two zip up hoodies. All of my shirts either have paint on them, oil stains, or holes in them because I wore them too much. Most of them are over 2 years old. I don't want to spend my junior year wearing the same things every day like last year. I don't want to continue feeling bad about what I'm wearing. Sustainable clothing is too expensive for me, and I visited multiple second-hand stores but found nothing I liked.
I feel bad about my face because I'm not the most conventionally attractive person in the world. If I wear my mask, people will question me and say I'm ugly, they've done it to other people in my school. And I don't want to wear my mask because it impairs my sense of smell. I have so much anxiety about my hygiene and I just want to smell good everyday, and the mask isn't helping.
And I feel stressed about going back without a mask because some very conventionally attractive guys find me attractive, and I don't want them to find me disgusting because then I'll feel even more horrible. This is like my biggest worry.
I'm also a borderline prediabetic, that's what my doctor said when they got my bloodwork back. And so I sweat extremely easily and I sweat a lot. I don't want to sweat through my clothes, and I don't want my face to look like a waterfall. It's like I need to carry a towel with me whenever I go for a walk/run. I'm very self conscious about this and feel very ashamed that I let my health get this bad during and after the pandemic.
I also don't have many friends. I really only have one close friend, and I have a few other acquaintances. Lunch has been shortened from 1 hour to half an hour so I don't have enough time to go home and eat lunch anymore. It takes 10-12 minutes for me to walk there. I have no one to sit at lunch with, so I don't know what to do.
I'm just so stressed and I have no idea of what to do. It feels like my life is falling apart again. Please help.
Since this is mainly a sex help place, I guess hygiene advice would be the most helpful. I don't want my vagina to smell, and I don't want to my underarms to smell. Please help, please.