I can see where you're coming from. I was one of those kids that didn't wait, and as an adult, I regard those decisions with a bit of shame and regret. It's weird reconciling this idea that, having surpassed the last 24 hours you spent as a minor to the first second you spend as a legal adult, you are suddenly ready, capable, and willing to do "adult" things. How does a person know if they're ready, or what to even expect? If you want my advice, I say stay away from free tube sites like P*rnhub, just because the videos posted to that site aren't regulated as they should be - you have no way of knowing if the people in 'amateur' videos consented to being filmed, consented to sex, or are of legal age. It's a cesspool. Though it might be helpful to Google porn categories to discover your options for exploration. You can also try exploring different types of NSFW content; audiophile porn, written erotica, erotic comics/art/fan art/games, etc. These practices might help you find out what you're *not* into as well, help you create boundaries. If anything gives you a bad vibe, or even just leaves a bad taste in your mouth, blacklist it from your search settings and keep truckin'. One day maybe you'll be able to enjoy paid content, where creators are guaranteed to be of age and consenting (usually - do your research). Hope you have fun!