I'm glad you managed to cry a bit, and I hope it felt good!
While there's no way to replicate the exact release you get from crying, it may be helpful to find other ways that help you channel/release your sad/frustrated/angry energies. By finding healthy ways to work through these feelings, you may naturally build reflexes to help you work through sadness, or even allow yourself to come to a place where you can
cry. A few ideas come to mind, but the possibilities are endless:
- Can you go somewhere alone -- the basement when no one is home, a forest/hiking trail, a beach in winter -- and scream it out?
- Can you practice meditation? Learning to look at your feelings and allow them to flow through you without judgment is huge.
- Can you use movement & physical exhaustion to work through your feelings? Working out, running, biking, dancing -- anything that helps you blow off steam.
- Can you journal? It might even help to express something physical through the pages -- maybe you write down things that are upsetting you, and then tear them up & throw them away.
The possibilities are endless, but the basic idea is, if you're not able to cry (right now), then giving yourself another physical outlet for your feelings can help with that sense of release.
Have you tried anything like that before?