Let me get one thing straight first: I love my grandpa,the one I live with.
But every time I'm around him,I remember how he touched my breasts without asking for my consent when I was 19. I feel I can't talk to anyone about this.I KNOW he won't abuse me again because I don't have breasts anymore (I had top surgery) and I look like a boy and have facial hair and he isn't into guys.But I feel uncomfortable.What do I do?
I just feel my life is bad.I have been sexually assaulted by 3 different people in my life,including him...
Also,I'm into older guys,and mum says that since I'm still a child in my mind,that older people will use or abuse me,like it happened before.How does one protect himself from being abused?