Hi- (I think) I was assaulted a couple months ago and have been a mess ever since…. Mainly I feel like maybe I’m just overreacting and it’s not what I think and I am partly at fault for participating. Here’s what happened ….
I went on a date with a guy and we just went to a park and sat by a pond to talk after a walk- he started kissing me which I was ok with but then he kept going and fingered me. I told him I was uncomfortable doing that in public and he kept going and then pulled his penis out and put my hand on it to give him a handjob… and I didn’t know what to do and just went along with it …I stopped again and said I was uncomfortable doing this out here and he just said it’s fine no one can see us…he then started to push my head down and at first I resisted but he did it again and made me give him oral and ended up ejaculating in my mouth… after all that he acted like nothing happened and walked me to my car… I think I was just in shock and didn’t say a word…..is that assault even if I kind of participated? I feel like maybe I gave him the wrong idea or something…. I feel like I’m overreacting calling it assault but was it? One of my friends said it’s actually rape? I just don’t even know how I let it all happen