I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

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I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

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Is there something wrong with me that I think I should have been born with a penis and testes. I imagine and visualize using the men’s room, and having a man’s role and wish I could be called a father. I wish I could feel masculine and had a penis and scrotum and testosterone to define my manliness.

The problem is that I never felt like I had the support to ever come out and accepted myself for who I am but have always wanted to be accepted as a male.
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Re: I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

Unread post by Sam W »

Hi Nikki,

Nope, there is nothing wrong with those feelings! Being Trans is nothing to be ashamed of, and I'm sorry to hear that you never felt that you had the support needed to come out. I think something you'd really benefit from reading right now is our Trans Summer School series, as it offers any information you might need if you are considering transitioning as well as support for a lot of what you're feeling right now: Welcome to Trans Summer School!
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Re: I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

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Thank you for your response.
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Re: I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

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Thanks for coming here! I hope the resource was helpful!
"In between two tall mountains there's a place they call lonesome.
Don't see why they call it lonesome.
I'm never lonesome when I go there." Connie Converse - Talkin' Like You
NIKKI6037
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Re: I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

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Jacob wrote:Thanks for coming here! I hope the resource was helpful!
Jacob wrote:Thanks for coming here! I hope the resource was helpful!
Thank you jacob.

It just feels like this whole time everyday is a new day where I feel castrated all over again and I have to recalibrate my mental identity to my physical identity because deep down I feel like a male who is missing my penis. I feel like I should be somebody’s father and be accepted as a man in society.
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Re: I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

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You saved my life. I can’t thank you enough.
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Re: I feel like I should have been born with a Penis

Unread post by Alice O »

Hey Songague,

So glad to hear this thread helped you :) Feel free to start a thread of your own if you'd like to talk more about bodies, gender identity, being trans, or anything else! We'd love to chat with you.
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