I got a boyfriend and thought I was ftm till I met him.
A little bit of a back story-
I’m 15 and I didn’t know I was trans up until 6th grade. Since sixth grade I thought I was ftm(female to male) and went by he/them or he/him pronouns. Now I just got out of freshman year(9th) and going into sophomore year(10th) but near the end of freshman year I got a boyfriend that doesn’t go to my school which are where all my friends are at. I didn’t tell him I was trans so he thought i was female and since he didn’t go to my school he couldn’t hear my friends call me by my pronouns.
Now after being with him after a few months I’m confused about my gender. I’ve sent nudes to him and idk if he’s being nice or truthful but he says things like “you’re hot” and then I feel good about myself. So now I’m confused about my gender.
Recently I told him that I used to think I was trans and that I’m still confused about it. He says he doesn’t want me getting the surgeries or the testosterone cause he says he will be less attracted to me and might even break up with me for the surgeries(which I don’t want the surgeries anyways except maybe top surgery nor do I want testosterone I think) he’s also not attracted to the same sex, which is males, and says he doesn’t know or isn’t comfortable with being gay but says he will try to call me his boyfriend but is fine with me and my friends calling me my preferred pronouns.
Honestly I’m just really confused about my gender now. I’m happy with my girl body with him but I also want to be a guy with other people. I like my chest with him but I also want top surgery to be a guy. I’m so confused.