Hi, thank you so much (not only) for what you said in the last paragraph, you're probably right, but it's so hard not to feel ungrateful or inadequate when most of people around me are what their parents want them to be and happy at the same time, they have partners, will have grandchildren, they know what they want to study, are good with people, healthy...
Anyways, as for the books, the place where I live is far less inclusive then most of the United States (at least I think so), so there aren't any LGBT+ sections and I admit I was afraid to ask people who work there, but I will try searching some more next time I get there.
Those websites are exactly what I was looking for, thank you so much!!! It still makes me sad or nervous sometimes reading about these things, but at the same time I love reading other people's stories and sometimes being able to relate to them.
Regarding my parents, honestly, I don't feel like I'm in a position where I could ask anything from them and don't known any arguments I could use, so I'm open to your ideas and suggestions.
(Long ramble incoming:
I just wanted to thank you all (and I'm sure I'm speaking for many other people as well)
for Scarleteen digital pride, the whole concept is so great!
I can't have social media so unfortunately I wasn't able to participate, I wish I could send you a photo of my guniea pigs with rainbow made of vegetables (sadly I didn't find anything blue)
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I also hope you will get everything you need for your camp in summer, wish I could help somehow...
Reading Sam's, Mo's and Siân's texts about Queer futures made me cry, that's probably all that needs to be said <3
I share your dreams and I'm sure many other poeple do too, hopefully enough that it will come true despite other forces trying to prevent that. I always remember the quote Heather has under their posts "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. "
I was thinking what I would say about my vision of future, it's hard for me to think about my own future, I think mostly about some small things I would like to happen, regarding my parents and friends. And for the global future I just wish poeple were never reduced to their sexual orientation, sex, gender, race, health problems, school grades or anything else anymore, I wish we could be a world of many different people living together without hate, shame or fear...
Just seeing how much work, energy and love you've put in preparing the programme of the Pride, putting together playlist and media recommendations and how much of that you put in everything else you do here at Scarleteen (and I'm sure that applies to everything else you all do) fills me with such a warm feeling of gratitude and makes me feel safe, like everything's gonna be alright when there are people like you in this world.
I really really hope you know how amazing you are even without reading my long-winded post, I hope you don't mind, I just could help myself
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I wish I could meet you all in person...