I've been in one serious relationship, and that didn't go so well. The guy broke up with me for pretty much no reason, leaving me heartbroken and upset. I really feel I was in love with him. The thing is, towards the end of our relationship, kissing him didn't feel right. It felt forced, which was either a sign things were going down hill, or that maybe my own identity was/is changing.
A while ago I thought I was gender fluid (I'm biologically female), then a trans guy, then a girl again, and now I don't know. And I'm okay with not knowing my gender, but a lot of my questioning about my sexuality has stemmed from my thoughts about gender. If I am gender fluid/bigender, am I straight, as in attracted to males? I don't know the term for that.
Another thing: I love fantasy/sci-fi genres, and writing. To get inspiration, I often look at pictures of fantasy worlds and characters. One thing I've realized: there are a heck of a lot of gorgeous female characters. I think they are very attractive, which leaves me wondering if I really am attracted to just guys. I don't know if I can picture myself in a relationship with a girl, but I still wonder... Am I bisexual? Pansexual? I feel like I could be attracted to trans guys or other nonbinary people. I don't know.
One of the situations I can see myself potentially dating a girl or nonbinary/gender fluid person, is in a polyamorous relationship, particularly a polifideltious triad. (I've never been in a polyamorous relationship, but I like the idea just as much as I like monogamous relationships.) I mean, I think two bisexual/pansexual guys is my preference, but I'm not sure I'd mind other genders. What does this make me?