Sksksksk, here’s the newest tea, and it’s pretty hot.
Have a seat, and lend an ear and listen:
My first boyfriend dumped me in early May.
He called me boring. Literally.
All the trust and intimacy we’ve built together slipped through my fingers unexpectedly.
I didn’t have proper closure in our relationship.
This (ex) boyfriend simply stated I was “boring” and “didn’t want me in his life anymore.”
Although this situation made me spiral into a depression and a identity crisis, I respected his statement, and never contacted him again.
But— here’s something that recently happened. He’s in one of my classes.
Did he decide to switch out of cause of my existence in the class?
You know what he does now...
He stares at me.
No, this isn’t an obsessive assumption. It’s the third week of school, our eyes still occasionally meet in class.
Either when I’m sitting 6-feet away from him, or whenever I walk through a door.
I always knew that this (ex) boyfriend was reclusive, socially-awkward with just about everyone. Staring is his way to observe things and interpret internally.
For someone who’s pretty much done with me... it’s almost paradoxical that he continues to look at me frequently.
He also lingers in the same classroom I hang out during my lunch period. That’s a little strange, dontcha think?
The big questions:
- the staring and lingering doesn’t make me uncomfortable, though, is this a possible non-verbal way to get my attention back?
- I’m not that stupid, I notice what he does, should I call it out myself? Or should I still respect his space after his statement?
- Should I let someone else approach him and do the talking for me?