No worries. I'm here at work regardless: responses and when you make them are about what works for you.
I'm struggling a little with your last questions. Not the first part: everyone has - or should have, anyway -- the right to feel how they feel. That's just a given. And the same goes with wanting what you want. Our wants aren't really fair or unfair, because our wants aren't actions or outside ourselves in any way.
But per what's fair to ask for based on ants is something else. And there's also the matter of learning when we do or might need to accept that we may really want a specific person or situation to meet our needs or wants, but it simply isn't going to happen, and if we really want those wants and needs met, we need to look elsewhere.
I hear how badly you want him to feel a certain way about you, want this same thing you do and like you want it, but from where I am sitting, it looks like that just isn't going to happen. Maybe he's just not that passionate of a dude, in general. Depending on how interested he is or isn't in other kinds of sex with you or others, maybe he's asexual. Or maybe this has always been more about platonic friendship for him all along or became that way for him. I can't speak to how attracted to you he is or isn't, or in what way, but it seems like regardless you want someone to be very outwardly expressive and intense about feelings of attraction for you, and that's obviously just not how he is or is going to be here.
This pattern you two are in sounds, to me, anyway, like a pretty typical pattern when something is either just winding down or when there is unresolved conflict. Sometimes both. Of course, I don't know what an awful fight looks like between you: fill me in?
I get the feeling that you have been in this for a long time and have been waiting for some big things to happen in it for a very long time. I can't imagine you don't feel very frustrated by now. Do you have a sense of why you are still waiting, if I have that right, even when I think it's pretty clear to you, two, this relationship and your dynamics together just aren't going to be what you have wanted them to be?