Hi cowwwmoo and welcome to the boards!
I first want to reassure you that it can take some time and experimentation to find what is pleasurable and works for you during masturbation. This is also not an uncommon thing at all. Finding pleasure during masturbation is one the most common topics people come to the boards with.
Masturbation can be very different from partnered sex in what you need and/or find enjoyable. Because of that, I want to pop two links into this thread which go into some more detail that you may find helpful to read through. The first is a basic primer about masturbation and the second is an overview about sexual pleasure because there is a lot that goes into it.
As you will read about in the article about pleasure, the largest organ involved in pleasure is actually your brain. So, when you are masturbating how are you feeling? Are you relaxed or aroused? Or more anxious and goal-oriented?